yep.

and so it starts.

the denial
the confusion

the wanting to hold on....the prayers for more hands so you can hold tighter.
the rage that takes you back to the empty promises and bitter lies of years gone by.
the sadness that comes with acceptance of another mistake..that felt like the real thing


the regret.

save me.

Hi.

I've been neglectful - I know. I think it's because if I write it, it becomes real..more in my face. So, let's say I've been avoiding more than neglectful...yeah. SO, let's catch you up.

Since my last post, I've ended 2 relationships...both that were going nowhere quite rapidly. Both were mourned (one more than the other for obvious reasons). Once I decided to put myself out there, I met a slew of people, went on one horrible date and pretty embraced the fact I was going to be spending a lot of time with my vibrator & xnxx.com.

Then...I met her.

*sighs*

And world is spinning faster than ever before...and I'm emotional and weak and completely not in control of my heart. I want to run...but I can't....

...I don't like this.