give peace a chance - or a piece of your mind!

Haven't decided which one yet.

I'll keep you posted.

change is good...but bills are better.

I haven't been blogging...and frankly, I'm not too certain why. I've had the time...the energy - just perhaps not the right words.

I've realized that I've tricking myself into believing that people change. It started with my father and trickled right on down into my social relationships. Oddly enough, both are Leos soooooo I guess I should have known that if one wasn't, neither would the other.

Go figure.

Neither situations are very upsetting - probably because I always knew the outcome and just rode it out.

Ok - I just lied.

The social situation is heartbreaking, painful and it has taken a ton of willpower and prayer NOT to pull my eyelashes out one by one.

There. I said it.

Everyday, I become stronger..I look in the mirror, holding my son & smile. 4 months into it and I'm still making it...he has everything he needs and I did it 90% by myself. He's happy, healthy and beautiful. I refuse to allow my emotions or broken spirit keep me down.

Besides, every women deserves a man who looks at her every day like it's the first time he saw her. Every woman deserves to be respected and adored. Every woman deserves to hugged & kissed & cuddled - and loved. Even thru this - I still believe.


Yup.

I once was blind.

no need for a long entry - I do believe the title says it all.



Hope everyone is enjoying the holiday weekend - I know I am (=

I'm nobodys fool - hello, Mr. Nobody .

It always amazes me when people come to ME for advice - especially when on a fair to regular basis, I feel like my life is a complete & utter mess.

But I digress.

The situation is as follows - My friend & her S.O have been together for a while. Families met, time spent..everything is everything. The exchanging of email & social network PWs happened. Curiousity of course MURDERED the cat & she logged onto his email a few times. One day, she attempted to & found that the PW had been changed. Now her dilemma is "How do I bring this up without sounding like a crazy for checking the damn email to begin with?" . That, of course is an easy fix because as a man, he KNEW you were gonna peek at least once. She confronts him - his excuse? "My ex is hacking me, so I changed my PW..it is blah blah blah." Problem solved, yes?

No.

I forgot to mention his excessive flirting, random phone calls at hours & sudden lack of affection towards her. So, when she tried the PW just days later & found it to be the wrong one, my phone rings. Now, being as though I have found myself in a VERY similar situation, I had 2 words for her.


GET.OUT


Funny how it's always so easy to give advice - and horribly hard to follow it.

In Memory...of me.

There are times when I lay thinking about life and…death. Usually past my bedtime.
My heart drops down to the pit of my stomach; I gasp for air.
My head spins although my eyes are closed. I open them, and I snap out of it.
I’m constantly thinking what can I do to ensure that my obituary is interesting?
Is that selfish of me?
I want to live a fulfilling life; explore, dream, pursue all of my passions. I want to be there for people – something that does not come easy because I am afraid of being a let down. Though, I want to help people genuinely when my heart tells me so, when I’m ready – not because I’m looking for some halo, not because it’s “the right thing to do”.
I want to be the grandmother, greatgrandmother even… that all the kids gravitate to. Grandma who creates memories through her lovin’ from the oven; photographs too.
I want to create traditions. I want to be spontaneous. Ride my life to the moon and back.
Life as I see it can be a hit or a miss.
My life’s gonna be a hit. That, I’m confident of.