change is good...but bills are better.

I haven't been blogging...and frankly, I'm not too certain why. I've had the time...the energy - just perhaps not the right words.

I've realized that I've tricking myself into believing that people change. It started with my father and trickled right on down into my social relationships. Oddly enough, both are Leos soooooo I guess I should have known that if one wasn't, neither would the other.

Go figure.

Neither situations are very upsetting - probably because I always knew the outcome and just rode it out.

Ok - I just lied.

The social situation is heartbreaking, painful and it has taken a ton of willpower and prayer NOT to pull my eyelashes out one by one.

There. I said it.

Everyday, I become stronger..I look in the mirror, holding my son & smile. 4 months into it and I'm still making it...he has everything he needs and I did it 90% by myself. He's happy, healthy and beautiful. I refuse to allow my emotions or broken spirit keep me down.

Besides, every women deserves a man who looks at her every day like it's the first time he saw her. Every woman deserves to be respected and adored. Every woman deserves to hugged & kissed & cuddled - and loved. Even thru this - I still believe.


Yup.